Remembering 911...ten years later.

I wonder why the number "10" is more important when looking at anniversaries. Maybe it has something to do with the human psyche understanding how much can change in only 10 years. I do feel something more on this tenth anniversary. A lot has changed in my personal views in 10 years. If you told me on September 11, 2001 how I feel today on September 11, 2011. If you told me 10 years ago, who I am today. I would not believe you. In many ways I am a different person, but my soul is still the same. I still remember and agree with how I felt that day. I wrote this five years ago. I re-post this every year to remember what happened and where I was that day. I also write a after-note at the end about my current thoughts about how our nation is reacting to this tragic day. Well, here is what I was doing ten years ago today...

I was deployed to Prince Sultan Air Base in Saudi Arabia for Operation Southern Watch in 2001. My job was to provide security for US personnel stationed there. I had been there since June 5 and my last day of work had been September 10th. On September 11th I was packing and cleaning my room because we were supposed to leave on the morning of the 13th. I had just finished and I went to the chow hall. That's when I started to watch the news and saw what was going on. At that point only one plane had hit the towers and we all thought it was an accident. I watched the second plane hit live. Then they hit the Pentagon. I went back to my room and started to unpack. My roommate noticed what I was doing, and asked why I was unpacking. I told him to go to the TV and turn it on. He asked what channel; I told him any channel.

We all knew it was an attack by some type of terrorist group. We went to our squadron to stand by for orders. They told us that we were on stand by and they would post us out tomorrow. Stand by meant we couldn't go anywhere, we had to wait at the dorms and always had to have our gear. We didn't know to how extensive this attack would be. A little known fact is that Iraq shot down one of our UAV's in Southern Iraq that day. At one point some of us started to think. "What if Saudi Arabia is going to turn against us? Is Iraq going to take advantage of this attack? Was Saddam involved? Is the US going to get attacked every day like Israel does?"

This was my first deployment. I remember when they told me I was going to Saudi Arabia. I was wondering why we were still sending troops over to the Middle East. It was for Operation Southern Watch, which was supporting Cease Fire agreements against Saddam Hussein. I also remember my first intelligence briefing about potential threats from terrorists. That was the first time I had ever heard about Al Qaeda but they weren't the only threat. Other threats included everything from a Third Country National who worked on base trying to get intelligence about the base to sell, to Saddam launching missiles at the base. Also the Khobar Towers Bombing, in which nineteen airmen died, was still fresh in the USAF's mind. A terrorist attack like that was the biggest threat against our base.

When I used to talk to pilots at the base, they told me how they used to get fired at by Saddam's forces. How they repeatedly had to engage targets in Iraq because Iraqi forces violated the sanctions or because they threatened them. I started to realize that the First Gulf War never really ended and there was an overgrowing threat in the Middle East that the majority of Americans didn't know about. I started to realize why they deployed me over to the Middle East. One of my Sergeants said it was because we were making sure that the threat that was over here didn't get to the US. That a Pearl Harbor attack didn't happen again. His words played in my head as I tried to fall asleep that night.

When I woke up, I thought it was a dream. They posted me in one of the towers guarding the perimeter. When night fell, I saw tracer fire. The control center said that the Saudis had told them it was celebration fire for a wedding. I wanted to believe that, but everyone in my sector knew what they were really celebrating.My team didn't know what they were going to do with us. We were told to stay packed because they said there was a good chance they were going to forward deploy us. One of the biggest memories I have was going to the chow hall. I had gotten to know a Saudi Arabian that worked the short order line and he was a good guy. I used to talk to him when I was getting breakfast. I remember that after 911, I didn't say anything to him. I was mad at myself later because I realized I shouldn't have stopped talking to him.

We finally left because our home base was in need of manning. We were the last Security Forces team to leave for over a month. Some of us wanted to stay because we felt they needed us over seas more than in the States. When we flew out, they crammed us onto a cargo jet and the pilot did a "combat take off" which meant he turned off his lights and took off as fast as possible just in case of anti aircraft fire.

We got back to the states on the 22nd of September. They told us that our leaves were canceled and to report to work the next day. It took awhile to realize what had happened to our country and how it would change my time in the military.

I have remembered every place I have been every subsequent September 11 since then. On September 11, 2002 I was again on my way to the Middle East to be stationed at Masirah Island Oman. On September 11, 2003 I was on leave driving to my brother Shane's wedding in Missouri. On September 11, 2004 I was working on my base in Tucson. On September 11, 2005 it was my last day at work while I was stationed in Balad Iraq. On September 11, 2006 I originally wrote this blog. September 11, 2007 I just gotten back from Baghdad. On September 11 2008, I just graduated from the Law Enforcement Academy and trying to get used to being a civilian. On September 11, 2009 I was working in the jail on detail in Tucson. Last year I was working radio dispatch at my job. This year I will be working.

We need to turn this War on Terror away from a "hot" war and more towards a "cold" war. Where we relay on our special forces more than our conventional forces. Where we relay on the CIA, FBI, and other Federal Agencies more than the USAF, Army, Marines and Navy.

As a veteran of both Operation Enduring and Iraqi Freedom. I support bringing the overwhelming majority of our troops home. We won in Afghanistan and dismantled Al Qaeda. Osama Bin Laden (and over 70% Al Qaeda) will not get anymore pleasure from watching what we do to commemorate this day. We also have won in Iraq to the point where it is all up to the Iraqis if they succeed or fail. Our nation did all we can do to help these countries. Now, since many do not want to raise taxes to pay for this long war. We do not have money to keep babysitting the Middle East. We fought and won this part of the struggle. Now, we need to focus on how to deal with the war against this radical ideology for the long run.

I do commend former President Bush and our current President Obama. They have/had the hardest job in world during the most difficult time in our nations history. We do not know what they knew when they made certain decisions and we never will. We can play Monday Morning quarterback for the last 10 years or we can move on. I say we move on and use today to remember how united our country was that day. We need that now as much as we needed it then.

Remembering 911

Original Date: Tuesday, September 11, 2006

I was deployed to Prince Sultan Air Base in Saudi Arabia for Operation Southern Watch. My job was to provide security for US military personal stationed there. I was there since June 5th and my last day of work was September 10th. On September 11th I was packing and cleaning my room because we were supposed to leave on the morning of the 13th. I just got done and I went to the chow hall. That's when I started to watch the news and what was going on. At that point only one plane hit the towers and we all thought it was an accident. Then I watched the second plane hit live. I went to the Base Exchange to by a pack of cigarettes and that is when I heard on the news that the Pentagon was hit. I went back to my room and started to unpack. My roommate ( which just got to Saudi Arabia) noticed what I was doing. He asked what the hell I was doing and why I was unpacking. I told him to go to the TV and turn it on. He asked what channel. I told him any channel.

We all knew it was a attack by some type of terrorist group from the Middle East. We went to our squadron to stand by for orders. We were told that we were on stand by and we would be posted out tomorrow. Stand by meant we couldn't go anywhere but to the chow hall and straight back to wait at the dorms and we always had to have our DCU's on and carry our gear. We didn't know how extent would this attack be on the US and everywhere else. A little known fact about that day is that Iraq shot down one of our UAV's in Southern Iraq. At one point in some of our minds we started to think.."What if Saudi Arabia is going to turn against us while we were in their country?" I can't even remember what other scenarios were going on in our minds. "Is Iraq going to take advantage of this attack?" "Was Saddam involved?" "Is the US going to get attacked like Israel does where daily bombings happened on US cities?"

This was my first deployment. I remember when I was told I was going to Saudi Arabia. I was wondering why we were still sending troops over to the Middle East. It was for Operation Southern Watch, which was supporting UN sanctions and Cease Fire agreements against Saddam Hussein.

I remember my first Intel briefing. Talking about potential threats from terrorists groups. That was the first time I ever heard about Al Qaeda and OBL, but that wasn't the only threat. Everything from one Third Country National (They worked on base) trying to get Intel about the base to sell, to Saddam launching missiles at the base. Also in our Commander's eyes the Khobar Towers Bombing, even though it was 5 years ago, was still fresh in the USAF's mind. 19 airman died and 372 people were wounded that day. A terrorist attack like that was the biggest potential threat against our base.

When I used to talk to pilots of the F16's, F15's and other fighter aircraft at the base, they told me how they used to get fired at by Saddam's forces. How they repeatedly had to engage targets in Iraq because they violated the sanctions or because they threatened them. I started to realize that the First Gulf War never really ended and there was an overgrowing threat in the Middle East that the majority of America did know about. America didn't know that the US (It's military at least) was at war. I started to realize why I was deployed over to the Middle East. One of my Sergeants said it best. He told me that we were making sure that the threat that was over here didn't get to the US. That a Pearl Harbor attack didn't happen again. Those words would play in my head when I was trying to fall asleep that night.

When I woke up, I thought it was a dream. It didn't feel like it happened. I got ready to go to work. I was posted in one of the towers guarding the dormitory area. When night fell I saw tracer fire. When I called it in, the control center said that the Saudis said it was celebration fire for a wedding. I wanted to believe that, but everyone in my sector knew what they were really celebrating.

For the next week. My team didn't know what they were going to do with us. We were told to stay packed, but that didn't mean we would be going home. They said there was a good chance they were going to forward deploy us. One of the biggest memories I have was going to the chow hall. TCN's served us food and during my deployment I got to know one of the TCN"s that worked the short order line. I used to talked to him a lot when I was getting breakfast. He used to start making my omelet right when he saw me get in line. He was a pretty good guy. I remember that after 911 I didn't say anything to him. I was mad at myself because of that, because I shouldn't have stopped talking to him. It was well, just hard to separate the people that attack us with him.

We only had to stay for 7 more days, because our home base was in desperate need for more bodies to post out. We were the last Security Forces team to leave for over a month. Some of us wanted to stay because we felt we were more needed over there than in the States. When we flew out of Saudi Arabia we were crammed onto a cargo jet. They did a "combat take off" which meant they turned off their lights and took off as steep as possible just in case of anti-craft fire. We flew to Ramstein Air Base in Germany. Then we were transported to Rhein Mein Air Base about 30 miles away. There we needed to wait for a Rotator (Civilian Contracted Aircraft) to fly us back to the states. It wasn't going to be there for two more days.

We went out to the nearby city of Frankfort to eat and drink a few beers. We went to a bar that was serving free shots every-time they played a U2 song. Some of the people in the bar found out we were American Servicemen and started to tell us how sorry they were for what happened. They gave us some of their free shots. In my mind it still didn't seem real.

We got back to the states on the 22nd of September and were told that our leaves were canceled and to report to work the next day. It took awhile to realize what happened to our country and how it would change my time in the military.

I have remember every place I have been on every subsequent September 11 since then. On September 11, 2002 I was again on my way to the Middle East to be stationed at Masirah Island Oman. On September 11, 2003 I was on leave driving to my brother Shane's wedding in Missouri. On September 11, 2004 I was working on my base in Tucson. On September 11, 2005 it was my last day at work while I was stationed in Balad Iraq. On this September 11 I am writing this so I won't ever forget how this day changed America. Sadly it seems that some people in this country have already forgotten what the overall policy of the "War on Terrorism" means to 911.

We can debate if Iraq was the good strategy in the overall war, and in retrospect I feel we should have waited to invaded Iraq and put more pressure on Al Qaeda in Afganistan. Also to put more pressure on Pakistan about quelling support for Al Qaeda in its country's tribal areas. However there is no denying that Iraq is the central front on this War on Terror. Groups like Al Qaeda and countries like Iran are treated this like a Third World War. The US needs to use this day to remember that. In 90's we tried to appease the terror groups in that region. We thought if we tried to negotiate with Iran, Iraq, Afganistan, and other countries that preach hatred towards the US that we could avoid a war. 911 and the rhetoric that some leaders in that Middle East spew about the US should wake us up to the fact that that appeasement will never be an option.